…..You get back on.

Hi, everyone. I definitely did not live up my to my 40 hour goal this week. I was…embarrassingly short of my goal. I spent about 12 hours total on my craft this week.

I allowed myself to get distracted by silly games on my phone, or Facebook, or just plain laziness. It would be really easy to blame my Receptionist job for not being conducive to the work I need and want to do, but the truth is, it’s my own fault. I brought my laptop with me to work every day, so that I could do the work I needed for my career. And yet, more often than not, I simply allowed my laptop to sit in my backpack, untouched.

I’m gonna be honest: I didn’t want to write this post. I didn’t want to admit that I had failed. I didn’t want to own up to the fact that I did not use my time wisely. I wanted to skip the post this week, and pretend that I was just too busy to do it. Maybe no one would notice. But I’m doing it anyway, because if I don’t hold myself accountable, I’ll fall back into the pattern of procrastination.

But it doesn’t do me any good to lament my failures. I fell off the horse, so I need to get right back on.

I did get some good work done this week. I had an audition that I felt really great about, I recorded a few sound clips for my venture into audiobooks, and I met with a couple of awesome women to discuss collaboration on a project that I’m really excited about — official announcement to come later.

When you want something to happen, you make it happen, no matter what. And that’s what this next week is going to be about. It’s my 52nd week in New York, and I’m not going to allow myself the luxury of excuses. When I post next week, I will be both exhausted and exhilarated by the work I’ve done.